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Wednesday, July 03, 2013

Not all who wander....

 
 
... Are lost.
This is a strange time for me. A transitional period which seems to have lasted quite awhile. I started my last year off on a completely different foot than I'm on now. My path has veered in a totally different direction. I know it's where I'm supposed to be, but alas it's bitter sweet isn't it? Ugh, I'm finding that most things are.
Around this time last year I was embarking on an exciting adventure in my career. I was taking in all the opportunity the film industry had to offer, and acting my little heart out. All the while prepping for school (acting) and in love with an amazing man. He was to move to Vancouver and we'd both be successful, and live happily ever after. That's what's supposed to happen, right?
Bitter sweet.
My love and I parted ways. Well,... Only half parted ways. He's still one of my very best friends. I still love him very much. As life goes on though, some people are better off apart. Some people need to be themselves, make mistakes, and grow,.. Alone. Doing the right thing for yourself is often a lonely road. Being young holds so many trials, and tribulations. It's difficult to navigate where you're going VS where the universe ultimately takes you. From what I gather it doesn't get any easier. All you can do is trust your on the right path, and if you're not that you'll be steered towards it.
Summer turned to fall. Something changed. Inside my heart and my head. As I still wanted to pursue acting, there had always been this hole that I couldn't fill. With anything. Working at restaurants, partying, and going to school just weren't cutting it. I needed to be creative, and shine in new ways. I just hadn't discovered how yet.